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nothing to say but title. wow.. he cheated on you?.. what an ass hole. i hate guys and girls that cheat.. whats the f***kkin point.. why dont u jus breakup wit ur mate instead of cheatin on them.. ugh.. makes me mad..buh what did he do?.. kiss another girl.. or did he do something else wit her.. what a lil slut.. do u know the girl..well im glad that u are gettin over him rather quickly!!.. good job!.. keep ur head up!.. and its always a bit funny when u start talkin to someone who was once friends wit ur ex!.. haha.. how funny is that..haha!!..[LiLOne14] 2008-09-10 15:40:11

nothing to say but title. Hey! I know, it's been awhile!
I've been pretty good.
How bout yourself?
You should post some pics up.
I miss your pretty face. <3
[somethingxxbeautiful]
2008-09-08 21:08:37

Broken Hey sweeetie i havent talkked to you in so looong!..
n wow.. readin this entry im guesssin u and josh are no longer together?..
well i hope thingz workk out for thee best..
keep tryin hun..  n iff he dont come thru the best thing for youu to do iz say
*f***kk Itt*.. Thtz how thingz have to be somtinmez...
n ahh!.. i like those quotes also![LiLOne14]
2008-09-04 11:13:26

Broken Aww, sweetie, I feel so bad. :[
Just keep trying. :]
Cute qoutes.
[somethingxxbeautiful]
2008-08-23 10:43:49

crying.

Aww hun.
That's sad.
I'm always here for you. =]

[somethingxxbeautiful]
2008-08-06 13:20:10

crying.

lol yay someone looked it up.

Its weird but you know you like it alittle :]

[xMySoCalledLife]
2008-08-05 14:05:32

crying.

hey thanks for the comment.

yeah like all of my family live in ireland so. where abouts did your friend go??

and i was just reading this entry now and the thing that struck me was - why did you sleep with him if you were breaking up?? surely you've just made it harder to let go?

now i dont know much about relationships but thats what i thought.

wb

xx 

[scaryfairy]
2008-08-05 13:47:33

Tummmy Ache.

yeah, i know i'll probably never like everything about me,
but i would like to just accept who I am + be content, y'know ?

and i'm super glad you and josh had a good time together,
and that things are going better. :D [ crossing my fingers ]

:]


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-07-14 16:51:41

hello.=]

I hope everything went okay.. I really, really do.
I don't want to see him hurting you again.
a;kldjsf;aldjsf;lkajsf, I really hope he didn't.

Waiting to hear from you..


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-07-13 12:15:44

home. pictures too. cute pics,i'm adding u to my favorites!!!!!!!!!!!Mr. Green[pebbs8] 2008-07-11 20:11:55

what I feel is real.

he isn't worth it.
i hate seeing you hurt.
you need to get out..
but i know it's not that easy.
:[ ugh..
love you.




[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-07-09 10:52:28

It all peices together. Ehw.

Yah that is a little gross.
But keep your head up.
I love you!

[somethingxxbeautiful]
2008-07-07 21:28:34

It all peices together. Ehw.

p.s. i'm super glad your friend is okay.
that's definitely God there. ;]


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-07-07 11:10:32

Independence. Day. hah.

he just doesn't treat you right.
i don't know what to tell you though,
if you can't let him go..
but you deserve so much better.
and i hate seeing you go through this day after day.. :/
I'm praying for you, lots.
Look to God, He'll tell you what to do.
Love you.



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-07-07 11:08:38

It all peices together. Ehw.

well, uh.... yeah. ugh.



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-07-07 11:08:02

It all peices together. Ehw. .........scarred for life. lol.[charlie007angel] 2008-07-07 08:38:13

It all peices together. Ehw.

hah.

sounds like my mom.Rolling Eyes

yeah it's pretty ickyyy.

[xheroinex]
2008-07-07 00:00:31

do not know.

=[ don't be upset.
I love you.

[somethingxxbeautiful]
2008-07-02 11:34:07

do not know.

I LOVE YOU.
and am praying for you.
know that, don't forget it, all right ?


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-06-28 22:08:36

yeah.

I'm sorry this is late, and that I've been gone so long.
But I'd like to say that.. I'm proud of you for this.
For telling your friend. For trusting in God so much.
And that list - that list is awesome.
My friend and I did that once, too.
And yes, it's really something you/I/we should stick to.



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-06-28 22:06:22

do not know. i hate days like that.
i love your list of things that you want in a guy.
it matches my mental list, every detail.
you'd think if we gave them guidlines they'd get it.
nahhhh.
hope it gets better(:
-kelsey[dropxdeadxgorgeous]
2008-06-28 20:07:49

yeah. Aww, hun, don't cry. :(
All of those facts are so true, I read every single one.
You did the right thing though.
Do you have msn?
[somethingxxbeautiful]
2008-06-25 21:20:58

home. pictures too. Looks like youu had funnn. (:
And your hair!
It's blonde again!
L0L.
And I hope everything works out with Josh.
God will help youu.
(:
I lovee youu,
~*_Taylor!_*~
[vikingsbabexo]
2008-06-16 15:08:52

home. pictures too.

I'm soo glad you had a good time at camp !!! :D
The pictures sure look like you were happy :] !
And that's such a cool experience, God speaking to you..
wow, that's awesome. I hope Josh takes it well and all.
Keep listening for God, love, He'll lead you. :]
Praying for you - hope you get to see him soon
and hang out and whatnot. See ya !! :D



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-06-14 21:07:21

I feel like a piece of sh*t. I had that same problem. =l
It sucked so bad.
I was in an abusivie reltionship and i was like, "why am i doing this?"
But at the same time I knew I loved him.
I heard a sh*t ton of rumors about him cheating on me.
I know how you feel.
If you wanna talk about things, let me know.
If you have msn you can add me too. =]
[somethingxxbeautiful]
2008-06-08 22:05:24

I feel like a piece of sh*t.

you might not want it to end..
but maybe it should. :/
i'm sorry, he just doesn't treat you right. at all.
and i hate that, and i hate that you like him so much
and he doesn't respect you back.. UGH.

praying for you... that's the best thing i can do for you.
pray for yourself too, yes ? it'll help... :/


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-06-07 07:10:07

Lots going onnnn. first job n stuff. (pictures.)

heyy ! i definitely want my belly-button pierced. :P
i'm allowed to next year on my birthday.
did it hurt for you .. ?

as for you and josh, doing, y'know..
well, just think really hard about it, yeah ?
because, i mean, yeah, he could just up and
leave you after it.. or you might end up regretting
it in the future, no matter how much you like him.
yeah, done preaching now.

i'm praying for you - SO glad you are going to
your church's camp !! i LOVE mine, and yours
sounds crazy amazing, so i'm sure you'll have
one amazing time there ! definitely praying it
will change your life - let it, and i'm sure it will ! :D :D



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-06-07 07:06:41

Lots going onnnn. first job n stuff. (pictures.) Cute pictures darlingg.[somethingxxbeautiful] 2008-06-05 15:50:02

Lots going onnnn. first job n stuff. (pictures.)

I hope you job gets better! =] Lol

Wow, I just had my dog put to sleep like a week ago =[, so I know how you feel.. The first night we had her put to sleep, I came home from my aunts house and as I was fixing to get out of the car, I started calling her name but soon realized she wasn't there anymore and I just busted into tears. 
Why did you have Maddie put to sleep? We had to have my dog put to sleep because she got preg. by a bigger dog and when it was time for her to have them she was way too small to get them out, and she was in alot of pain, so we took her to the vet and they said they could try and get the pups out and see if they could save her life, but if she did live she would be in alot of pain for a while, so we just had her put to sleep =[, ugh it just about killed me!

Sorry this was a long comment!

[tiffy09]
2008-06-05 08:35:58

It's stress I would guess.

i'm already uspet about the end of school and losing people,
and this entry just made me cry.. honestly, i just can't stand change sometimes.
goodness, now i'm crying like mad.. haha, wow...
not really sure what else to say besides that.
oh, and to answer your question, i'm out of school the 6th.


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-31 20:52:13

It's stress I would guess.

i'm already uspet about the end of school and losing people,
and this entry just made me cry.. honestly, i just can't stand change sometimes.
goodness, now i'm crying like mad.. haha, wow...
not really sure what else to say besides that.
oh, and to answer your question, i'm out of school the 6th.


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-31 20:52:13

It's stress I would guess.

aawwwww hun!!! Crying or Very sad

**super hugs**

hope u feel better about all of this soon..

some ppl may say "it was just a dog" or "your friends aren't gone forever," but no, she wasn't just a dog. she was one of your best friends, your companion, someone you could tell everything to!!! you don't get that sort of companionship everyday.  i had a cat almost my entire childhood, and when i lost him, my world fell apart. Crying or Very sad and yes, your friends aren't gone forever, but you never know. they definitely won't be there to see them when you want to.

its a crappy situation, and i am sooooo sorry!!!! just keep your chin up and you'll be okay. plus, you have ur friends on MDD if you need us!!!

**more hugs**

p.s sorry if i didn't help any. Embarassed

[sweetazzhonee]
2008-05-29 13:39:07

&& I live... where?

blahh. changes. but.
changes can be good.
perhaps not right away ;
but, eventually, they can be.
you seem to be faring pretty well ;
i hope so.
are you still in school,
or is it over for you ?
well, hang in there_xoxo



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-27 22:31:16

...yeah.

OMFG*.. Congratulationz on theeee license!!.. I Neeeda Get Myne!!..
I Want to go next weeek!.. Im scared!!..

 N Ahhh!!. a job interview!!.. Goood Luckk!!

[LiLOne14]
2008-05-20 10:41:39

...yeah.

my parents divorced when i was.. five ? six ?
so i don't remember it all that much.. just a little.
it still has effects on my life, of course.. but i don't know.
i'm hoping and praying things will be okay with you + your family soon.
just hang in there. praying for you and josh, too..
don't worry about not commenting, i feel the same way
when a ton of crap is going on in my life ; it happens.
we here at MDD still love you bunches, i sure hope you know that. ;]
cry it out, if you need to.. it sure helps most of the time.


and whooooohooo about your license - :D


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-19 22:26:08

worse. (fugly picutres of me.) your gorgeous love, and don't ever let that pretty head tell you different.

<3
[PerpetuallySearching]
2008-05-11 00:02:16

took the night off early. =/

i guess i can't say anything for sure..
i mean, i'm not there and all...
but girl, he just doesn't seem to be treating you right at all.
even though he's going through a lot right now..
he shouldn't be ignoring you - he should be coming to you,
knowing that you're always there for him.
gahhhhh. you deserve so much better than this.
you really, truly do.
just.. think about everything, weigh the pros and cons.
maybe you guys need a break for a while ?
maybe then he'd see that he's not treating you with the respect you deserve..

praying.


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-10 14:03:09

took the night off early. =/

oo. thats kinda f***ed up
NO thats bullsh*t duude.
chick what you need is
someone who actually likes
you for you and actually
cares about what you want and
feel. ditch him like he did you
like soon. think about it.

paigewashere

[paigewashere]
2008-05-09 22:15:25

idk. =/

:/ just hang in there, s'all you can do.


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-09 21:41:59

idk. =/ Brady,
I loovee yooh!
Stay strong!
~*_Taylor!_*~
[vikingsbabexo]
2008-05-09 14:06:53

something bad.

[[[[[[ Brady ]]]]]]
I hope things didn't turn out bad..
praying for your guys. Hang in there.



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-06 22:37:03

help me help him. what would you do?

I don't even know.. :/
I'm praying for him, though.
If he's not going to talk,
that's all you can really do.
Let him know you're always there for him.
I think you've done that, though.
That's really all you can do, I think..



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-06 22:35:34

something bad. Awe.):
Let me knw what happens!
I wanna be the first tooh knw!
Illyyyy,
~*_Taylor!_*~
[vikingsbabexo]
2008-05-05 18:49:40

help me help him. what would you do? Im guessing that you two are a couple.
The smallest things can bring people out of depression, and the smallest things can bring people back in.
Leave him small notes, leave him things that remind him of memories you may have had together.
Leave him little things, like a cupcake.
Just small things that might brighten him up.
Though these things are not a cure, they can help with him smiling more.
Whatever he's going through there's always a underlining issue with depression, he may not know what is causing him to feel that way just yet, but sometimes you can help him with that too.
Also don't get too pushy, or too asking how he is, and things like that.
That can push him away really fast.

Hopefully this helps.
Take care.

<333
[PerpetuallySearching]
2008-05-05 00:07:06

CuHraZay. weekend. (& some pictures.)

awww. :]
i'm glad you guys are working things out.
and you guys are too darn cute. ;D
i wish i had a boyfriend, just so i could
take cute pictures like this.. haha. X]



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-04 20:21:56

worse. (fugly picutres of me.)

being totally honest, i do like your hair blonde better - but that is not to say that it looks bad now ! i really like the pics of when you first dyed it, and when you tried to fix it, well, it's honestly not as bad as you think. and you can fix it, just give it some time or whatever.

i don't know what to say about josh.. maybe he's got stuff going on too, who knows.

but i sure hope you're feeling better soon.. and seriously, it's not that bad. you've got enough going on, you don't need to worry about your hair too. hang in there, hun_xoxo


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-05-01 19:28:00

worse. (fugly picutres of me.) Wow.. he was being a freakin butt head to you.. thats mean.. n ur hair actually looks good either way!..[LiLOne14] 2008-04-29 10:47:28

worse. (fugly picutres of me.)

Awe.
Im soo sorry.
I think it looks good either wayy.
I wish I could help.
I wish I could bee there tooh givee yooh a hugg.
It would makkee this much simpler.
(:
Lol.
I loovee yooh,
~*_Taylor!_*~

[vikingsbabexo]
2008-04-28 19:36:39

worse. (fugly picutres of me.)

sweetheart honestly it really doesnt look bad.
But if you really hate it go to a salon and get it stripped and re dyed.
or if you use Pert shampoo it lightens the color quite a bit.
trust me, i died my hair black after reading Cosmo and it was horrible.

Gennifer.

[happilyflawedxox]
2008-04-28 17:09:23

worse. (fugly picutres of me.) aw shucks. i hate when things are bad. but...dsi, things'll get better. 'after the storm is a rainbow'. you look pretty. sorry you feel down...but u know what really cheers me up..a gigantic tube of ice cream and a corny movie! haha. [charlie007angel] 2008-04-28 17:09:10

worse. (fugly picutres of me.) You are gorgeous regardless of your hair color. Some people say that a womans hair is her crown of beauty and her biggest weapon but I think that personality does all of that. Honestly, you are psyching yourself out. It doesn't look bad. I was blonder than you use to be and my hair is now brown, I died it last december. I hated it at first but then as I saw myself with it each day I grew to love it! Hopefully you will to. Best of luck to you and if over the course of a week you don't like it well, that's the wonderful thing about hair dye! But a hint of advice going lighter when you are darker turns out horrible with store bought stuff. My sisters hair turned ORANGE lol go to a hair stylist so you don't make it worse. =)[Forever17] 2008-04-28 16:57:29

worse. (fugly picutres of me.)

I think your hair looks awesome hun

Serena <3 :D

[SharpKisses]
2008-04-28 16:38:23

worse. (fugly picutres of me.) well hang in there honey, you will get use to it eventually. I know it sux now, but it won't bother you soon. And sorry your boyfriend was such a jerk.  
[andIcry]
2008-04-28 16:24:02

worse. (fugly picutres of me.) awww baby you're hair will be okay!!  it's just hair and you can fix it.  i don't think it looks bad and you're quite pretty when you're not crying about it.[jumbojumbo] 2008-04-28 16:24:02

worse. (fugly picutres of me.) Kill all the color and go platinum. It'll work.
[dangerousgangmember]
2008-04-28 16:23:17

nothingness.

the good thing is.. this won't last.
even though it seems like it will,
i swear to you it won't.
praying for you ..


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-04-25 22:53:08

nothingness. Donttt Worry..
Thingz Will Gett Better!!..
BE HAPPY!!
Ur Nott A Nothing!!

Howz Ur Boyfriend And U Duin!!?..[LiLOne14]
2008-04-24 10:45:03

nothingness.

Awe.
Brady...
Goshh.
I really wish I could give yooh a hugg.
Tht would make it easier.
Im reallyyy sorry thou.
...I loovee yooh,thou.!
:D
Phahaa.
iloovveeyooh.<3.
~*_Taylor!_*~

[vikingsbabexo]
2008-04-23 19:34:35

nothingness. Things can only get better x[LoveMex] 2008-04-23 16:20:14

our 2 months =-] (pictures too.) CONGRATZ On The Two Monthz!!
And ORAL Sex!!.. Ahhhh!!
I Lost My Virginity Years Before I Ever Did Oral Sex!!.. hahaha![LiLOne14]
2008-04-22 10:52:45

our 2 months =-] (pictures too.) Aww you look amazing. =D[somethingxxbeautiful] 2008-04-19 23:28:46

our 2 months =-] (pictures too.)

i really like your suite. :] and man, you're dark ! i'm afraid of tanning.. =X although it supposedly makes you feel better, especially in the winter. maybe i need that.. but i'm afraid !, hahah.

i hope you guys have a good night at Josh's concert. :D !

and... i wish i had my belly-button pierced - eeps ! ;D

nice hearing from you, once again. :]


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-04-17 21:25:15

its been awile..

ahhh, the weather is getting nice here too. :]
being outside in warm sunshine always makes it a good day.
long time, no hear... hah. nah, i've disappeared to.
good to hear from you, though. :]


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-04-17 21:23:21

its been awile.. Ahhhh!!..U Lost Ur Virginity!!.. Ahhh!.. How Exciting Iz That!!.. Did U Like Itt!!.. Gurl Tell Me More!.. I Wanna Kno Whatt Happened!.. *&* Yay!.. Good At Least U Lost It ToSumOne U Love!!..
Love Ya
*Deee*[LiLOne14]
2008-04-17 11:10:07

empty.

wow, you got him good.
it's neat, that you pulled it off.
still sorta mean though, heh. :[

i don't even know what to say..
about the family stuff..
my family fell apart a long time ago,
but y'know what... it's falling back
together again, even though some days
i wonder if it really is..
still, i just give it up to God..
and trust Him with it..
because so far, He's sure done
a good job of bringing us all
back together.. and i know He'll
do even more healing.
just keep praying, girl.
you're family is in my prayers. <3


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-04-07 20:13:38

empty. Wow.. thatz A Funny Prank!.. Kinda Mean Tho/1.. HAHA..
N Im Sorry About Ur Bad Day..
Maybe Thingz Will Change..
And Since Ur Dad Iz Leavin, Maybee Ur Relationship With Ur Mom May Change.. Jus Keep Ur Head Up Beautiful![LiLOne14]
2008-04-03 10:24:18

Is change real? (&& new pictures.) WOW!!.. THATZ AMAZING!!.. I WISH I COULD DO SUMTHING LIKE THAT!!
DEFINITLE PUT THOSE ON MYSPACE!.. U GOT TALENT!!
AND ADD ME TO MYSPACE..WWW.MYSPACE.COM/DYONNI14[LiLOne14]
2008-03-31 16:04:15

Is change real? (&& new pictures.) Wow! That's what I call talent hun
I probably couldn't do that if I tried,
and I'm afraid to try lol

[Sxybree0925]
2008-03-30 20:20:07

Is change real? (&& new pictures.)

Mostt deff. put them upp on MySpace.
Those are greattt,good jobb girllyyy.
(:
I loovvveeee yooh,
~*_Taylor!_*~

[vikingsbabexo]
2008-03-30 17:57:45

Is change real? (&& new pictures.)

hahaha, you're crazy. ;D

sweet pics


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-03-29 23:05:35

Is change real? (&& new pictures.) you must be flexible. i think you can put it up[frootloopedcheerio] 2008-03-29 15:11:33

Easter baybee. (& spring break pics.) starbucks is always good:)
yes, me and adam are dating lol.
those are really cute pictures !

happy late easter? lol.[yourlittlexmonster]
2008-03-25 10:53:30

Easter baybee. (& spring break pics.)

i'm glad you had a good Easter. :]
and it sure looks like it in the pics.
you and lexy could be twins.. for real.
or maybe it's just me.
but you look a lot alike, yo two do.

have a good week at school ! =][JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-03-24 10:25:53

Easter baybee. (& spring break pics.) you are
too fkin
pretty(:
xx[kelsey]xx[dropxdeadxgorgeous]
2008-03-23 19:34:26

How do you put a title for this one?..(pics.)

wow.. i just can't even imagine.. oh man..
i'm still praying for him ; wow, he's so strong.
that's just crazy.. that's too much,
and he's so young.. a;lkjd;sflkajdf. :/ :[
praying for you, too.
hang in there, okay ?
it will get better.
this storm won't last forever.

and thanks for everything. :]



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-03-23 07:19:37

How do you put a title for this one?..(pics.) Disappear?
Haa.
I wishh.
And tht diaryy is my boyfriendss.
He dont wreite muchh,
But its his.
LOL.
Ilyy;;
~*_Taylor!_*~[vikingsbabexo]
2008-03-21 09:10:49

How do you put a title for this one?..(pics.) Awe.
Yooh guyss look cute togetherr.(:
Im sorryy yooh wanna cryy.
If yooh need to talkk,Im here.
Ilyy;;
~*_Taylor!_*~
[vikingsbabexo]
2008-03-20 20:12:03

How do you put a title for this one?..(pics.) hmm that's sad...hope ur friend gets through everything alright.[soulsearcher] 2008-03-20 16:32:12

Day After Christmas. (pics) Sweaters with sleeves like that make everyone look fat...they're ugly sweaters...[littleyellowxlillies] 2008-03-20 13:54:57

Almost To Where I Can Say.. Its Over.(Pics of us) dude he's ugly...they belong together...[littleyellowxlillies] 2008-03-20 13:51:31

Why am I not with my Boyfriend?

ughh... :/ i sure hope he gets his butt up and over to see you soon !
because otherwise that's just beyond lame.. hah.
and you deserve to have a guy to actually be with, in person.
but, i'm glad you had a good morning, anyhow. :]
and thankkk youu for the comment ! :D


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-03-15 22:31:17

Varsittaayy cheer baby.

congrats on making VARSITY !! :D woot !
and i'm glad josh is back and safe. :]
and spring break, yehhh babyy ! ;D


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-03-15 22:30:04

Varsittaayy cheer baby. Congrats on Varsity squad!
I will be,hopefully,in 11th grade.
2 more years.
I lovveee cheer so muchhh,
&& hate when people say its not a sport.
Yer on Spring Break?
OhEmEffGee.
Luckyy yooh.
(:
<3,
~*_Taylor!_*~
[vikingsbabexo]
2008-03-15 10:48:49

Trying to force a smile. && pictures. New diary.
somethingxxbeautiful
add it. =]
[emilylovesblaine]
2008-03-11 18:35:16

Trying to force a smile. && pictures. PS--
yer UBER gorgeouss.
(;
~*_Taylor!_*~
[vikingsbabexo]
2008-03-10 17:02:45

Trying to force a smile. && pictures. wow.
i noticed tht too!
me and yooh are the only ones.
:P
Pahaa.
Thts sorta wierdd.
I made a new diary b/c theres some things i wanna ferget
and people i wanna fergive...
yooh know how tht is rightt?
lolll.
byeeex.
~*_Taylor!_*~[vikingsbabexo]
2008-03-10 17:01:12

Trying to force a smile. && pictures.

Ahh..
i hope everything iz okay with ur boyfriend..
*&* i hope u get to see him soon..
i  know.. im alwayz anxious to cee my boyyfriend when i havent seen him for a while..
n my heart for sum reason alwayz feelz empty and my throat feelz dry..
no lie!!.. im dead seriious about that!!
so i kinda know how ur feeling!!
i know ur jus missing him so much!! =]
hope he getz backk A.S.A.P!!
Hey.. U Should add me to myspace!!
www.myspace.com/dyonni14
Okey dokey!!
So have u went to take ur driving test yet!!??
I Havent =[..
Buhh ima go soon!!
I HOPE!!..
n well you and lexy are so adorable!!
i loveee Thee picz!!
Take care sweetie!!
*Deee*

[LiLOne14]
2008-03-10 15:25:56

Trying to force a smile. && pictures.

heya x

thanks for the advice; im going to see him tonight i think and talk to him then so; fingers crossed.

&& your really pretty btw :)

xxx

[xfarrahxm]
2008-03-10 11:41:49

Trying to force a smile. && pictures.

you are so gorgeous;
i especially love your eyes -
they're so green ! :D

i'll be keeping josh in my prayers <3



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-03-09 23:13:01

Trying to force a smile. && pictures.

thank you.

Yours look kewl too

yall look like yall are having a blast ^_^

XD

[xmiseryx]
2008-03-09 22:10:55

Worry that eats away at your stomach. Aww thanx. And yeah I think that too. No-ones ever happy hahaha. xo[blueeyedgurl] 2008-03-09 14:05:22

Worry that eats away at your stomach. I hope Josh is okay,Brady.
: /
Im adding yooh,if thts okay.
This is MohawkCheerlder2013,
Iff yooh remember tht diary.
~*_Taylor!_*~
[vikingsbabexo]
2008-03-09 13:59:57

SURVEY.

1.Where did you kiss the last person you kissed? Outside my house.

2 .What’s the greatest thing that happened to you today? sexy time.

3. How many TRUE best friends do you have? 5

4.Would you rather get up early or sleep in? Early, unless i am with my boyfriend.

5.Tell me about the shirt you’re wearing? a black sweater top with half sleeves that doesnt cover my shouders.

6. What are you excited about right now? TONIGHT.

8. Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth? SMILE OVER A LIE.

9. What’s on your bedroom floor right now? My dogs bed.

10. Who’s the last person you got into a argument with? Dad

11. Do you trust people? depends on the person.

12. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move? Japan, if the peopel i love can come.

13. Your favorite number? 2613

14. Could you go a day without eating? i can go a week.

15. How much do looks matter to you in a guy/girl? Not that much, as long as they have a good personality.

16. Do you like anybody right now? YES! MY BOYFRIEND <3

17. When was the last time you had your hair cut? A month ago... Which reminds me, i have to do that.

18. Would you rather be mad or sad? MAD

19. Does it take a lot to make you cry? More than you'd know.

20. Whats the best feeling in the world? BEING WITH FRIENDS AND HAVING ALOT OF PLANS AND MY BF.

21.Are you close with your mom? NOPE.

22. Are your parents strict? YES.

23. Do you tell your parents everything? NOTHING.

25. Name some fears you have: Trusting, the unknown and being alone/

26. Does the thought of marriage scare you? NAH.

27. How many kids do you want? 2-4

28. What’s your favorite season? SUMMER.

29. What’s your favorite color to wear? BLACK.

30. Who was the last person in your bedroom? KASE <3

31. What are you doing today? Maybe partying, and having some fun later in the night. Wink

35. Do you get bored easily? YEP

36. What’s something that someone can do that really bothers you? BE FAKE and lie.

37. Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger? YEAH.

38. Do you wish you were famous? NOT REALLY. 

39. Do you make a wish at 11:11? YES. ALL THE TIME.

40. When you go to the beach do you swim or lay out more? SWIM.

41. Who’s the last text message you received from and what did it say? I cant wait to get home to you. I have a suprise. And from my bf.

42. What are you freakishly obsessed with? No lol

43. What’s your favorite song at the moment? Ummm... Anything by pearl jam.

44. Do you like going to the mall to shop or just shopping online? MALL. DEFFINATLY.

45.Can music affect your mood? DEFFINATLY.

46. What piercings do you want? TONGUE, and left side of my lip and more on my ear.

48.Have you ever been in a cave? YES.

49.Ever eaten a bug? yes.

50.
When will you hang out with the person you last kissed next? Tonight, he has a suprise for me Wink

51. Are you in a good mood? Yes, a bit tired.

53. Would you rather skydive or bungee jump? SKYDIVE.

54. Do you like snakes? SURE

55. What’s one place you would like to visit? Mexico.

56. Do you like waffles? The syrup is too sweet....

57. Does the number 23 have any significance to you? nope

58. Be honest, do you like people in general? Not usually.

59. What color are the walls in your bedroom? Green.

60. Do you think starbucks is expensive? YES!

61. Are you named after a family member? NO.

62.
Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass or fail? MAD FAIL!

63. Wanting to tell someone something? Yes, my friend that i am dating her FB.

64. Last restaurant you went to? A and W

65. What is the weather like today? COLD.

66.
What happened yesterday? I blazed, partied, and had the best sex EVER!

67 If you had 5 million dollars what would you do with it? Invest, save and buy everthing i need.

68. How many hours did you sleep last night?  5.

69. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend? nope.

70. Who’s the last person that you felt was stalking you? no one

71. Have you ever been on your school’s track team? nope

72. Have you cried today? NO

73. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? I HOPE SO!

74. Does it annoy you when someone says they’ll call, but never do? YEAH.

75. What did you dress up as for Halloween? I didnt.. Crying or Very sad


[Sageofnothing]
2008-03-08 18:18:41

Life is a mystery.

Thanks for your comment =]
& if you ever need to talk I'm here for you too =D

It's hard to be there for people when they won't
tell you what's wrong =[
I hope you find out and are able to help him
<3

[MousesEatCheese]

2008-03-03 15:20:24

Life is a mystery. awwwww that's sweet. You sound like you REALLY REALLY love him. [charlie007angel] 2008-03-02 10:58:07

Cuhhrazzaayy doo. (pictures.)

Aww!!.. Tht Iz CUTE!.. I Think Itz Cute Wrestling Witt Ur Boyyfriend!!..
Wow.. Crazy That He Was In Jail.. That Suckz..
N Good Luckk ON Gettin Ur License..
Ima Take Mine FridayAlso..
Itz Hard To Get Ur License Out Here Cause Those Ladys Are Freakin STRICT..
N Hella Mean!.. Ill Tell U How Taht Goes Okay..
N Yahh U Tell Me Too!.. Good Luck!!

Ur entries Arent Boring At All!!..
Thas Whyy I Read Them!
And CUTE PiCz!!..

*dEEE*

[LiLOne14]
2008-03-01 13:22:17

Cuhhrazzaayy doo. (pictures.)

You two are so pretty!
I luhh the first picture most deff! <3

[emilylovesblaine]
2008-02-29 20:01:56

Cuhhrazzaayy doo. (pictures.)

Wow, I love Lexy's haircut. :]
And I like your hair color.
Together, they're exactly what I want. :D
And I love those swimsuits, fer sure. ;]

Wow, jail ?! Crazy !!
Well, at least he's all right.

You and Josh sound so cute. :] <3
I'm glad you guys had a good time !


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-27 22:26:12

Cuhhrazzaayy doo. (pictures.)

lmao! it's nice to talk to someone that can relate =P

I have been resisting the urges, because like you
said I don't want anymore scars to regret...And
I do really, really regret them. Especially when
people ask and I have to make up reasons for them all.
Yeah, annoying lol
& I'm really glad you don't cut anymore =]

thanks for the comment, I really appriciate it
And I hope you don't mind but I added you to
favorites lol
Take care,


[MousesEatCheese]
2008-02-27 21:19:18

Cuhhrazzaayy doo. (pictures.)

Really cute kini!

yea i really agree with you...paramores last cd was like 1000 times better<3

<33Sarah

[LilS43]
2008-02-27 15:25:08

Cuhhrazzaayy doo. (pictures.) well i originally let my brother's friend come over when i was babysitting him, so he'd leave me alone. my mom found out, but he's 10. then she was grounding me and i laughed at her. hah. oh i know. i love snowdays. btw, i your bikini, it's smokin'. have fun at andrew's hottub.[grapesAREgreen] 2008-02-26 21:33:19

I hope its almost over. hey i live in iowa! haha.. oh the joys of living in iowa.. not.
i'm sorry about your parents.. my parents divorced when i was
like 1 in a half. everything will get better. =]
[emilylovesblaine]
2008-02-25 19:48:39

N/A

I'll keep Josh [ and YOU ] in my prayers.
And I'm glad your mom will be home soon !
praying <3


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-24 20:07:28

I hope its almost over.

:/ :[
blahh, ;alkjsd;flkjadsf.
i'm sorry you have to deal with this.
ugh. that.. is ;alksdjf;l.
i'll be praying for you..
is your mom coming home soon ?
i hope so.
and i'm glad you have good friends
like Lexy and her mom.
just hang in there, 'kay ?



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-23 22:44:25

I hope its almost over.

OK:

JUST CHECKING! I  will notl et any young person suffer on this site, because we are a family. Yahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

[ANONYMOUSAnonymous]
2008-02-23 20:38:11

I hope its almost over. Where is your mom? If he is abusive, tell someone. You do have to suffer.Evil or Very Mad[ANONYMOUSAnonymous] 2008-02-23 20:27:37

Hola!

have a goood timee :]
oh. unless that was today.
i forgot to look at the date,
on your entry. oopss.
you guys sound really sweet together. :] <3
and haha, at least backstreet boys
is better than barney..
yeh, that's what i've got stuck in my head.


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-20 21:40:18

I'm not single anymore =]

you go with a black guyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Oh my goodness, like, is he hot, like, he is blackkkkkkkkkkk!Mr. Green

Just kidding! I am black and Native American too.

Forgive your father, and go on with your life. I found out when parents argue and get upset, they are afraid of your life turning out crappy.Twisted Evil

[ANONYMOUSAnonymous]
2008-02-18 09:51:00

Valentines Day. aww balloons are the sh*tt. =][emilylovesblaine] 2008-02-17 17:34:15

Our myspace conversation.

ooooh ! someone might be getting a boyfriend... hehe. XD



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-15 23:32:00

Valentines Day.

aww, that's so sweet of him ! XD <3

hey.. enjoy the time you've got with your grandma,
and other family.. something could happen, y'know ?

i hope you have a good weekend. :]


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-15 23:28:40

Valentines Day. OoOhh.. U Naughty Gurlz!!
I Liike Spencers tho!!=][LiLOne14]
2008-02-15 15:45:13

Valentines Day. OoOhh.. U Naughty Gurlz!!
I Liike Spencers tho!!=][LiLOne14]
2008-02-15 15:45:13

Our myspace conversation. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww sooooooo cute![charlie007angel] 2008-02-12 12:53:11

Our myspace conversation. Awwwww!!.
He Liiiikes You!!
How CUTEEEE![LiLOne14]
2008-02-12 11:05:39

Last Nighttt. (pics of the outfit and nite.) Your soo pretty and ur hair looks great like that.[tiffy09] 2008-02-11 14:28:14

Last Nighttt. (pics of the outfit and nite.)

hey...i added u on my favs!

cute pics...hey i read that u have facebk, can i add you on my facebook?...anyway l8az!

[charlie007angel]
2008-02-10 18:20:33

Cornation Tonight. =]

haha..
thank you!
and for my almost first, it was pretty messed up..
but i kinda liked it..
im just worried now..cause i know next time it WILL happen..
xx[kelsey]xx

[mb012]
2008-02-09 14:08:47

Cornation Tonight. =]

I LOVE UR HAPPY ENTRIES SWEETIE!!
*&* Haha!.. Im Sure He Does LIKE You!
U Definitely Better Get At Him!..
He Seemz Muchos In to You!

GoodLuCk!.

.//-Dee

[LiLOne14]
2008-02-09 13:51:25

you can call me 6 times &I wont pick up the phone

If I was black.. I'd so date him but I just don't believe in mixing races but he is pretty hott =]

[tiffy09]
2008-02-08 16:22:13

you can call me 6 times &I wont pick up the phone There's nothing wrong with you liking a black person. My baby's daddy is black. But alot of people think it's a big deal for a white girl and black guy to talk or date. But it doesn't matter as long as your happy. But he is pretty hott :)  hope everything works out[ash2000] 2008-02-08 09:33:06

I feel great! wow! yay!!!.. im happy for u sweetie!!
itz been awhile since i read a happy entry from youu!!..
add me to ur favez!
take care
*deeeee*[LiLOne14]
2008-02-06 15:07:06

I feel great! wow!

cornation?
does that mean formal?
lol.
if so, yeah it is. well kinda.
it's semi-formal.

[catchingthestars]
2008-02-05 17:33:26

Postsecret + Pics

this entry reminded me a lot of myself..
mind if i add you ?
i want to go back and read your other
entries when i've got more time..


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-04 22:25:59

Flashback. (tons of old pictures of me.)

and oh yehh... the winter makes me depressed too. [ sigh ]
the sun finally came out yesterday, and i was in a goooood mood finally.
there's a 'disease' sorta thing... seasonal something or other..
i think i might have it, maybe you do too..
being in the sun helps a LOT, but it's kinda hard when there's no sun ever..
heh. yeah. i hope you're not so darn depressed anymore..
'cause crying every night sucks.


[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-04 22:22:24

Flashback. (tons of old pictures of me.)

WOW ! you look AMAZING ! you are soo pretty !
i can't decide.. i like both of your hair colors !
you can pull them off super well. O.o
With the blonde you definitely look older though;
almost like a whole new person.



[JesusIsMyAntiDrug]
2008-02-04 22:20:58

I feel great! wow! Woo for driving!
Hope you get your licence darling. =]]
[emilylovesblaine]
2008-02-04 21:47:31

Flashback. (tons of old pictures of me.) You look diffrent now. Your very pretty. I like that pic where your hair is curly it looks pretty.
 
[Cartagena]
2008-02-04 19:20:58

Flashback. (tons of old pictures of me.)

haha i was obsessed with taking pictures!!!!! im kinda missing that. it's ironic that when i got my own camera at christmas time i suddenly lost motivation in taking pics. hah.

these were really fun to look at though! you're very pretty!

:D

[SlayerChick]
2008-02-04 18:46:37

Postsecret + Pics You look sooo much like my sister. =][emilylovesblaine] 2008-02-04 17:32:55

Postsecret + Pics wow!
sweeetie, i agree. i really thiink u should write about all the good thingz in ur liife, n try to forget about the bad!..i thiiink ur a beautiful girl, honetly i doo. ni hate to hear that u have to putt up wit the thingz u do..n all i can say iz that u neeed to be strong, for urself.. n dont let any one, or anything bring u down!...
take care
*deeee*[LiLOne14]
2008-02-04 12:00:40

Postsecret + Pics

lol those are my favorit kind of underware!

they always fit so perfectly =D

[NEVEREVERALONE2006]
2008-02-04 00:36:25

Postsecret + Pics I relate muchos here. deppresion is always bothering me. but on the bright side i like your "headband" lmao.[BlissfullBlood] 2008-02-02 18:49:32

Postsecret + Pics i have a challenge for you. for your next entry, i dare you to write a list of 10 things or more that are good in your life, and things that make you happy and that you like about yourself. i am gonna do that too i think. right now.

-rebecca

ps. oh, and how do you know you are going to Hell?? don't you believe in God?? [paperthin]
2008-02-02 18:03:21

Postsecret + Pics

*I used to cut 2 years ago.

*I still cant believe that people call me outgoing because I'm nothing but insecure

*I am so annoying and I think I annoy myself more than anyone else

*I almost commited suicide last year .

*I hate talking on the phone because I am scared I cant keep a conversation

*I try to be funny because I think I am a very boreing person

*Lately I have started to stutter.

*I cant keep a relationship. In fact, I've never had one over a month.

*Im scared to let out when I'm upset to people because they'll just say I want attention

*I love reading about other peoples problems because I feel less alone

*I get annoyed if Im not getting nice attention

*I force myself to get out and have fun but Its not even fun anymore

*Alot of times when I'm out doing stuff All I can think of is getting home to just cry

* I'm not even pretty

*I honestly dont think I can pass my driving test

*I think everyone hates me. 

*Sometimes when people call me I dont answer

*Drinking makes me happy, Im sorry.

*People call me stupid EVERY DAY.

*I care when people say sh*t to me but the people that really affect me are my parents.

* I dont like me.

out of all the stuff you said, im pretty sure most of it is the same for me aswell.
ima go ahead and say dont worry about it all. but i know you probably will, cuz i know i do

[ImustBeImpossible]
2008-02-02 15:36:11

cant stop crying.

Your are NOT stupid, you are NOT worthless, you are a beautiful girl with people that love you!  I'm sorry this is such a hard time try not to beat yourself up!  Do you think maybe your depressed?  Have you seen a doctor??

On a different note it's the last weigh in  on Tuesday for the comp if your still in!

[Teenieworld]
2008-01-31 20:04:41

cant stop crying.

yeah it was a quote... didnt think nebody would realise tho lol.i kinda know what ur going through. i dumped my ex so he would stop taking me for granted, lonng distance relationship. nw hes going out with his best friend hu is a dog!! i dont like him anymore but his friends told me it had been goin on for a while. i went down n stayed with him. his friends prefer me nw.. n i got with his best mate.

basically dont get mad get evenLaughing

its also a lot funner

x x x x

[hopeless14691]
2008-01-31 14:27:18

cant st